Sick. Helpless. Hungry. Unfortunate.

Hi blog,

I am so angry that I am actually crying now. I don't have my dinner for today. :(

This sounds like an extremely trivial matter but with the headache from my incessant coughing, everything is so frustrating and I just can't take it anymore.

You need to know how the pocket money system works at home to understand what I'm gonna rant later on.

Every week, we get $70. If there's no dinner we get an additional $50. If dinner is served, we get an additional $30 to buy other goodies. My maid gets money to settle her meals too.

So this week, dinner is supposed to be served everyday. But mom forgotten to give us our $30. That's actually fine because we usually use that to buy things like gongchas.

This afternoon I went out to drop some documents at SMU. When I got home, my maid spammed be loads of questions on the tasked my mom had asked her to complete. (Like I know what she's supposed to do and like I can answer her verbally. After 2 days of silence, she's still expecting answers from me)

Then suddenly she said: "Serene, you want to buy your dinner? I thought you're not having dinner at home because you go out, so I never cook for you." She cleverly assumed everything herself.

I feel exploited because I don't have dinner when I indirectly paid a price by not getting my dinner money.

All I can eat is my medicine now. Reason being: 1. I spent my remaining money to top-up the stupid EZ link. 2. my family simply won't drop everything at hand just to buy dinner for me, even if they do, I'll only have my dinner as supper.

& she simply loves to provoke me by asking "Serene, you not eating dinner?" every few minutes. If she does that again I will throw something at her with all my might. And why am I not eating dinner? Because you didn't cook.

I can't even call my mom to complain.

This sucks. I wonder if she did this on purpose because I wasn't wearing anything nice at all (to indicate that I'm going out for long) when I left house.

I am so angry because she is so freaking lazy that she doesn't even bother to start cooking for me when there are groceries at home. And I am not letting her out of the house to buy me any food even if I have money. Let's see how you can call your friends.

I wish I could faint at home and everything will be her fault. (it is actually)

I can't stop crying.